I think I may just get some sleep now. I don’t feel like I have a reason to stay up any longer. I’m coming to realize so much more about people and their behavior. I just need to accept things and try my best to deal with them somehow. 

I can’t expect for things in my life to be fixed by others. I’ve know and lived by this all along. I suppose deep within my consciousness I want to be saved and I’ve always wanted to. Nothing just doesn’t seem to work out anymore. Everyday is only getting all the more worse and I can’t help but feel useless about it all.

The way I feel. My emotions. All of it holds no significance once so ever. Something really good needs to happen before I completely give up on humanity.