February 2012
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I wonder how is it like to have everything you’ve ever wanted. To have the things you actually need in your life. To be blessed enough to the point that you’re able to see that one person you care for most. To be able to have a job and a vehicle. To be able to have a life. I just can’t help but feel the way I do. I feel so…Angry. I just wish I had someone to talk...
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I suppose all I’ll really be doing all night is writing. I have no idea what to do for entertainment right now. I wish it was easy for me to have fun, but its so hard to have a good time. I remember the point in my life when fun came to me. When I didn’t have to run after it all the time. Now everyone I’ve known and used to hang out with are either in college or just...
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Reassuring Love
I have a rush. A sensation which I cannot hold in any longer. I must be with you. Holding out for so long, everyday. Every night. I ponder over the thought of being with you. Of holding you in my arms each and every night. I can’t take the fact that I’m not there with you. To hold your hands through any and every ordeal. I don’t want you to feel alone. To feel like you have...
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It’d be nice to have someone to hang out with right now. I pretty much have no one to be with right now. Another wasted weekend. Bleh. :\
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I wish I wasn’t so bored right now. If only I could be with her as much as I want to, at least I could be slightly bored with her. Just wondering why she’s taking a while to text me back. :\
When someone calls me and then asks 'Who is...
chaystar:
NIGGA YOU CALLED ME
WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?
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Goodness, I am sleepy, so I guess I’m headed home to become a glutton and head to bed. Talk with you all tomorrow people.
Stay beautiful. ^_^
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Wow. I can’t believe how great the day is outside! It feels so wonderful out. How lucky I am to be alive right now. I feel so lucky to be able to breathe this day and appreciate the beauty it brings. ^____^
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Trust no one. Not your “best friends”. Not your “friends”. Not a single soul. In this world, anyone can turn on you. Anyone. That one person you trust most will use everything against you. All of those conversations and situations you’ve told them about, they will use it to their advantage to get at you. Don’t tell everyone everything about yourself, and you...
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Usually, once I get over sadness I just don’t care about anything else. I say, “Fuck the world and everyone in it.” But I can’t mean every word. I know this is another part of myself talking, but I have yet to accept my true self. I can’t come to grip, nor come to terms with myself and just accept the fact that I’m on the bottom of the food pyramid. I’m...
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And I Pretend to Look the Other Way
Feeling this horrible feeling coming over me…Must write to get it all out… Shrouded in such hate. Hate for myself. I’m afraid to sleep now. Afraid of the thought..Afraid of losing what’s so very close to me… I feel so helpless.. So useless.. Can someone please help me?? Put my life in perspective! Let me see the light!?! I hate this fear! Please move this fear away...
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Okay… It was nothing but a dream. Just another dream.. Completely nothing to worry about. Just a figment of my current thoughts intertwined into one disturbing fantasy… Nothing that I would never want or wish to happen. This has happened to me before in the past, and nothing bad came out of it. At least, the reason of each breakdown wasn’t caused by this reason. So I suppose...
